Lately, i dont know why, but ive been feeling like i felt years ago. Depressed, down, and basically shitty in myself.
I dont fully understand why. Or maybe i do, but i dont want to admit it, even to myself.
Things have been going so good, with making friends at college and stuff but...i dont know, i can never be bothered to do anythign, my motivation is so low and i feel so crap lately.
i used to self harm years ago, and stopped.
Every now and again i get urges to do it, and usually resist them, but couldnt the other night.
i feel like i have no one to talk to. i have people i can chat to. but no one to TALK talk to. if that makes sense.
i cant even talk to *him* anymore. apparently all i do is moan. i wonder why that is?
i dont want to be like this, but it somehow feels so...safe? normal?